A C-!!!!!!

What. The. Hell.

I thought i was understanding my difficult literary and cultural theory class. guess not. my first paper that I got back was a fucking c-! this is not ok. on any level. I never get such average grades! this is my smart ass little academically graceful brain we're talking about.

I desperately want to fix this. I want to rewrite it and butter up the professor, but it won't help. This is a life lesson. There are things that we will fail at. Even things we are really good at will still go wrong sometimes. So what if I don't get an A in this class. It is one class. In the grand scheme of things one class won't kill. Accepting that some things are out of my reach is ok. I don't have to be a perfect student to be a perfect me. I am more than a good grade. Grant it, i've never had a bad grade. like ever. on anything. but there is a first for everything.

C-.... Below average my ass.