There is a tiny part of me that desperately wishes that Chris would not give up and fight for me. I want him to show up here with flowers saying he's sorry and lets give it another go. In a small place in my heart, I really wish for that.
But it is unrealistic. That's not who he is. My life isn't a movie. I can dream that little dream every night but it won't happen.
More of my heart is hopeful for someone new. I'm hopeful for someone to come along and sweep me off my feet. I want to fall in love again. I want to feel my head spin and my heart race. I want something new. I deserve something good and new. That is what I will really wish for.
Now if I could just get that little part of my heart to stop screaming, I might be able to sleep tonight without an empty dream...
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