A crush

So, I have a crush. Stupid as it is. And the funniest part? I've known him since kindergarten.

Neil is one of my best friends. He is unbelievably kind and sweet. He never fails to talk me through a hard time. He flatters me and compliments me. He offers to take me out to the movies. He respects how I feel about having a random hookup and he doesn't push me to do any of that.

Problem is, he's perfect. Bigger problem is, he just doesn't want to "have a serious relationship". Biggest problem is, I do.

He called me beautiful tonight. He tells me to have sweet dreams. He takes care of me when I'm feeling down and upset about everything else in life. I text him everyday. I don't understand why he does all this if he doesn't want to date.

The worst thing though, I know neil would never ever ever pressure me into anything, I've had such bad experience with guys being dishonest that I can't help but think this is one elaborate way to get in my pants.

I know its not, but I just don't get why he's torturing me like this if its not going to go anywhere.

Whether they are sweethearts or douche bags, guys don't make sense.