suddenly angry?

Why am I having mood swings? Idk. I feel bipolar. All of a sudden I just want to hit someone. Anyone. Everyone. My heart is racing and I feel sick. What is wrong with me!???? Help! I want paige and her dad to leave. I'm tired of this. I'm done. Stick a fork in me. Also, little ashley, my sisters first friend in kindergarten, used to piss me off cause she is a bossy bratty bitchy brutish, burly, buttface. She is now 15 and 15 times worse. She likes everything Colby posts on facebook. He is almost 19! That is sooooo illegal. It makes me angry as hell because he was my friend. My reliable colby. Now, I'm nothing more than a chick he used to sleep with. Great. I screwed that up. Now I have no friend in colby despite what he says. And ashley is just a big bitch. Sorry but its true. She needs to get slapped. Also, my skin is erupting in hives cause idiot kirsten failed to tell me that she and teddy went to joes crabshack for dinner tonight before teddy started licking me! I now am in pain. So if anyone wasn't convinced, I am allergic to shellfish. Thankfully I didn't lick teddy lol Oh and paige and her dad are drinking beer while I try to sleep. This is soooo wrong. I just want to hit them. And then both of them try to convince me that smoking pot and ditching on my family is ok. They try to tell me that I should just go live on my own. Are they nuts????? No. Here is something everyone needs to hear loud and clear... I love my family. I love my dad and mom and brother and sister. They are the people I know I can trust and rely on and believe in. They care about me and I respect them out of courtesy for everything they have ever given me. We may not be blood related, but our bonds are stronger than a bloodline. We are connected directly at the heart and that means more than anything to me. Sure, I miss Katie and yes I love her. She is a part of who I am, but she comes and goes. Her abandonment never seems to cease sometimes. But my mom, my real mom, the on that is there when I fall apart to pick up the pieces doesn't judge me for anything I decide. I don't feel that from katie. There is a reason I try to limit what I tell her. And katie, when you read this. Don't get angry. Don't be hurt. I am ranting and honestly you are lucky. Out of the 19 years of my life, I have screamed at my mother enough for you to get a little blog spat. Ask her. She'll tell you I freak out... I love everyone in the end because I am a genuine kind hearted person, but right here I needed to vent.