he texted again today. my patience is being tried. my heart strings are being tugged. but i held strong.
chris : "hey" (4th time this month, record since we were together....)
me: "look. i'm at school. i like my life. just leave me alone. you blew it."
nothing came after that. the you blew it was a little much but it helps keep my distance. screw him.
you know, i wished last night at 11:11 that he would never text me again. that failed. im mad at all the times i wished for him and nothing but now when i want nothing it works. karma? I would have said fate and used it as a reason to let him back but something has changed.
i feel incredible. school is barely a worry. i love my life and friends. i feel optimistic that its a good year. i refuse to PUT myself back in a place where chris can hurt me again.
ive been dreaming of flying over the rainbow to a better happier place for so long and now im just so calm and real and here. no rainbow needed.
over my rainbow wasnt a place, but simply a peace of mind that came after i let it stop raining.
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