Wanting to say something.

I've been writing letters for awhile now. I never send any of them, but I feel like I need a closure through some sort of public forum so here:

Chris,

I wish I knew exactly what to say. I'm mad and hurt and above all disappointed, in both of us. I waited around in the wings for two years. I chose to leave you behind and I do not regret that choice now. You have had your fair share of time to come back to me. I'm not going to let you half ass back into my life.

That being said, I do miss you and I probably will for a little while. I miss your smile and laugh and the sound of your heartbeat. However, I don't miss your wishy washy personality, your cruel way of keeping me in the dark, and the shame you associated with being with me.

I don't want to hear from you. I don't want to and will not contact you. Missing you will change, but the pain you cause will not. So, I'm doing what is best and walking away. I loved you. Forever, I promised. But I guess we're not meant for forever.

Always,
Hannah

So now I've said my little piece and I feel calm yet again.