I hated the therapist I had before I went off to school. She never really seemed to help me very much. Partly, I did not give her much to work with, and partly, she seemed a little nutty herself.
However, I have been thinking recently that a therapist here at school, as in a school counselor, might be of some help.
I don't feel like I'm drowning or that I can't handle everything, because I can without any problems. I just don't have a friend or person where I can really talk honestly because even here, my parents and friends read and I have things that I feel should not be shared publicly but still need to be voiced none-the-less.
I know I have character flaws and personal faults, but I don't know how to come to terms with my faults and flaws in the daylight and with the people around me. I've been so emotionally distant for so long that I feel as if I am always watching the lives of my friends instead of participating myself.
This distance is fine if I want to stay distant, but I believe that after a good long year of being separate and lonely, I can deserve to be a part of things with my walls truly down. (Yes, I am acknowledging that I have walls. Quit saying I told you so Katie! :P)
A little self honesty helps and hopefully seeing someone to talk to will help too.
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