My Friday Night

So, I have been texting an old friend of mine this week. We've been trying to get together to hang out sometime. Last night finally worked out and he came over to hang out, watch a movie, and just catch up.

I have no regrets. I have no questions. I have no confusion. I have some feelings, but not any of the bad ones. One thing though has me hung up slightly. He hugged me and told me, "Being single gets lonely sometimes". What?

I could analyze that statement to the worlds end, but my thought is this. Sometimes is only sometimes. Lonely happens when you don't have a significant other. I was convieniently there to hug. At the end of the day, I'm still single and so is he.

This being said, I told him to go to a party instead of staying the night with me cuddling like old times. Good choice on my part, but still. I wonder if maybe I have changed enough in my perception of him that I know what I need to do to stay ok. Sending him away is something I would never have willingly done before, and yet, this time, it just slipped right out of my mouth. Although I cried a few tears when he hugged me after I said he should go, I felt good. I cried because he was feeling bad and hugged me so sweet. But, cheesy moment aside, he left.

Now, if he texts me like he said he would I'll believe this whole friendship thing. If not, it was a fun night that didn't leave me feeling like dog shit the next morning. I'd say overall, my night was good.

Oh, my one little proud moment. When he said he felt like an asshole for leaving my response was perfect. "Chris, I don't expect anything more than asshole from you". Boom. Roasted!