Consequences

Every choice we make in life has a consequence. It can be something as little as choosing not to grab breakfast and failing a test or something as big as forgetting the condom that one time and a new baby is on the way. Thankfully, neither of those choices have been made by me, but the point still stands.

I'm at a decision making point in my life. I either decide to focus my efforts on school and my career, or I can choose to work on my school work and still have some fun sometimes too. I have to decide which people I will spend my time with. I need to decide where my life goes from here.

People in our lives influence our choices a lot depending on the person. However, the ultimate choice is ours. Thus, I feel compelled to say, as much as my ex has influenced me in spending my time with him, I decided one hundred percent to go willingly. I now deal with the consequence, extreme confusion. I am once again at a point with him where I either try to get him back in my life or I try to shoo him away from mine for as long as I can. Usually I twiddle my thumbs for a few days and then decide to move on, but here, I feel the pressures of my decision weighing on me. The choices I am making now, affect the rest of my life. That is frightening.

So, I have put much more thought and effort into my decisions and choices. I analyze the consequences of my choices now before I make a decision. It makes a huge difference when we think about the choices in our life.

Therefore, I am stressed out and frazzled. I cannot focus the same and I am lost in my head from time to time. Figuring this out though, is meaning more to me as an individual than anything else I have ever experienced.