I want it back!

I got my ring sized. Got it back today. It was still too big. Brought it back in. Now won't have it for another week. I've had my ring for 3 days out of the like 14 that we've been engaged. Not cool.

On the bright side, we might be moving out of the apartment sooner. Id be happy to start our life together without crazy pregnant sister living there. Seriously, I thought I could lose it sometimes, but DAMN she wins at yelling and freaking out. Stupid butt yelled and tweaked so much last night that she got chest pains and cramping. Even the baby knows that yelling is bad!

So all in all life is still moving. Don't have much else to say.

The Wedding Buzz

So besides finals week sucking the fun out of everything, this whole getting married business is pretty darn exciting. I'm still trying to get the fiance to pin down a date, but never the less, I'm excited. We will be married and starting a wonderful life together. After I graduate and we have our big wedding, who knows where we'll go. He wants to head down to Georgia to be a drill sergeant. I want to go to grad school. We both really want kids (no need to fear, not until after I graduate at least undergraduate if not graduate school). Yeah, life has kind of revolved around wedding stuff, but yesterday we both got a little drunk to be a little silly and just had a good time. I love this man and I'm so lucky to get to spend the rest of my life with him.

Sometimes you have to sacrifice to make it work.

I'm skipping class to finish my paper for senior seminar. I looked at it again this morning and just wasn't happy with what I had. I'm slowly adding in more strong material in hopes of making it better. I feel like my paper is going to be far worse than everyone else's but in the end, I won't know. I'm trying to keep it in perspective as just a paper, but it's hard. I have to present it tonight and I'm terrified. So, it's not techinically due until next week, but we're presenting this week. I don't understand this professor at all.

So, if I fail this paper and fail this class, yeah I'll be mad, but I have to remind myself that I can always try it again (not likely) or I can change my english major to a minor and be done with it. One F on my transcript isn't going to kill me. Mom and Dad said I won't disappoint them and I know I will succeed  at my goals long term. This may just be one small failure in the process of being great.

I skipped class today. It's the last week of class. Nothing is happening. But I need the time to get this done and practice my presentation. Wish me luck.

Real Love

Kyle and Kelsey are/were fighting the last week. That explains why Kyle has been spending so much time with me and wanting me there every night. I don't mind. I love spending time with him, but I did feel a little taken advantage of when I figured this all out. I felt like Kyle took advantage of me wanting to spend time with him so that he didn't have to deal with Kelsey and not because he wanted to spend time with me. We talked about this and he reassured me that is not true. He said he likes me being with him. I said I love being with him. I love waking up in the morning to a kiss on the shoulder before he gets out of bed for work. I love hearing I love you before I fall asleep. It's amazing.

He's stuck living with Kelsey and James until December. Depending on if I get the IAS position on campus or any part time job really, I could live with him next year. We'd stay in his current apartment until the end of the year then get our own place in December. It's possible. I know I would miss living on campus, but I'm barely here now. I'd like to put down some roots with Kyle. I have such a good feeling about us and I want to see where our relationship goes. I could see myself marrying this man down the road. He's everything I need to balance me out but I'm still me and I love that. So, I'm officially on the job hunt like crazy right now. Wish me luck!